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October 30, 2008


I’m Special

Me and H.P. had a nice long talk last night. That would be my higher power. I confessed that this was now getting a little harder and to send me a sign, any sign of what was going on.

When we finished talking, I got up to go to the bathroom and had started bleeding. Right through the progesterone.
So, the sign was to go ahead and sleep in rather than get my ass up too damn early on a cold morning and take a blood test at the big fancy clinic? I slept in.
This morning I had to go to the drugstore anyway, so I went ahead and picked up an HPT, just to waste money.

The RE and I have had our little BFN talk and this is the part where I’m special: I’m going back to Clomid. Yes, it seems I’m the only woman to ever try IVF and go back to Clomid (ok, maybe not the only one, but you find me another one. My acupuncturist has never heard of such a thing either). I’m telling you, I was the Clomid poster child and it got me pregnant once. Remember when I told you I was having a massage in Bali and I heard a voice telling me to do another round of Clomid? Yeah. Listen to your inner voice kids, even the crazy voices usually have a message.

I don’t know about you but dancing with wild abandon in my living room always makes me feel better no matter what. That, and cooking. So, I’ve made a delicious soup and in between stirring, danced like my life depended on it–hair flinging all around and I think at one point some spit even flew out of my mouth.
I leave you with the video for L.e Ti.gre so you can see if it works for you and the soup recipe which is perfect for these cool days.

Parsley Potato Soup

Delicious, nutritious, and freezes well.
4 cups potatoes, peeled and cubed
4 slices bacon
1 large onion, chopped
½ cup chopped celery
¼ cup fresh chopped parsley or 1/3 cup dry parsley
4 cups chicken stock
2 cups milk or half and half
3 tablespoons cornstarch
Salt and pepper to taste
½ teaspoon nutmeg
Fresh parsley for garnish

Pour chicken stock into saucepan and heat on medium. Meanwhile fry bacon until crisp. Remove from pan and crumble into warmed stock. Saute onion and celery in the bacon fat until golden then add to saucepan along with potatoes and parsley. Bring to a boil and cover and simmer until tender. Stir in the milk and continue cooking until hot but do not allow it to boil. Mix cornstarch in a small cup with 2 tablespoons of water. Add this to the soup continuing to cook and stir until thickened. Add the nutmeg and add salt and pepper to taste. Enjoy!


Dexter Thinks I’m Pregnant and Other News

Me and Dexter, we had a lot to say.  Dexter is from Trinidad and I’m from the Midwest and we talked about politics and the election and the shitty state of the world and that turned into ways to save money in this current economic crisis and then…we were talking about alcohol.

And how expensive it is.  And how I don’t drink anymore so I save a lot of money on alcohol.

“Really, you don’t drink at all?  Not even wine? Why not?”
“Health reasons.”
“Oh yeah, you are a super healthy kind of girl?”
“Well, yes, but….”
And then I thought, what the hell?  Maybe it was from being in the house for almost 48 hours, but I told Dexter I was trying to get pregnant.  And he said, without blinking:
“Oh yeah?  The old-fashioned way or artificial insemination?”  (We aren’t rainbow flag type of girls, but I guess he saw the wedding photos….)
Me, totally Blinking, “Um, artificial insemination.”
“Oh yeah, that’s good!  My wife and I did that.  How’s that going for you?”
“Well, not too good, I’m not pregnant yet.”

This turned into a conversation where Dexter told me without hesitation how he and his wife tried to have a baby for 3 years, she had 2 miscarriages and finally they went to “that Jewish hospital by Union Square” where they took his sperm, spun it in tube, put it on his wife’s eggs and then put everything back in her body.
“Your wife did IVF?”
“I don’t remember what you call it, but yes, I think that’s it.  And now our daughter is one month old today!  Anyway, I think you are pregnant.  I hope you are.  It’s great you are doing this.  I can tell from talking to you that you are going to be a very good mother, very responsible and aware kind of mother. Good luck to you.”

Wow.  You just never know where you’re going to get support.  The most unlikely places seem to creep up just when you need them.

PS-I got the TV just in time to see the 30 minute Obama special.  He is so powerful.  Did anyone else bawl their heads off or was that just me?
I also cried at a commercial for a Bora Bora hotel chain.
TV is so beautiful.  I’m ready for winter now.

PSS–I finally made it out of the house to get milk.  The deli guy was having a crappy night and yelling at someone on the phone, so when he handed me my change, I said thank you in Arabic and the biggest smile broke out on his face.  Then I almost cried.