That is such an inadequate word to describe what I felt, but nevertheless it’s the first word that came in my Pufferhead.
Here’s the scoop: I was having blurred vision Sunday and Monday. This is also one of the symptoms of pre-eclampsia which combined with my high blood pressure and protein in the urine previously in our story, sent me on high alert.
Blood work came back OK! No pre-e for me on Christmas. WHEW. I am so relieved.
I’m under strict orders to ‘take it easy’ which of course means I had to have it spelled out exactly what that means.
I can walk a couple of blocks and do stuff around the house, but honestly I don’t even want to walk a couple of blocks. Chicken has become my sherpa and is adapting to her new position quite well.
Her dads came down to the city and we were supposed to meet them for Christmas Eve dinner tonight. Doc says it would be much better if I not go and I agree. I need to be somewhere I am comfortable and can rest and put my feet up. We asked them if they could come here for dinner–after all, the restaurant we would be going to delivers to our house–and they balked and said they’d discuss it.
Are you fucking kidding me?? Such typical alcoholic behavior. Her father has been so concerned about me having twins and keeps saying things like “take good care of my grandkids in there” but god forbid I disrupt his holiday plans with my high risk pregnancy and doctor’s orders. Unbelievable.
It’s almost 5pm. We were supposed to have an early dinner at 6:30 and we still haven’t heard back from them if they are coming over or not. I don’t get it. We are seriously less than 8 blocks away from the restaurant. Argh.
There was no sympathy from her mother either who suggested that I just go to the restaurant anyway and find a chair there to put my feet up on. That way I wouldn’t ruin anyone’s holiday. Chicken reminded her that the Doctor had said it would be best not to go…but I think her impression was that I could just suck it up for one night and I didn’t want to or something. Seriously, people. What is WRONG with you??
That just caused me more stress. I’m going to go lay down now, read a book, relax and not let my alcoholic in-laws get to me.
Merry Christmas Eve!!
Update: Chicken is on the phone with them and they are coming. I could care less at this point. Honestly.
Let’s just say “packing the bag for the hospital” just got moved to the top of the list.
The baby puffers are all over the place. I would love to be able to watch them all of the time to know what they are doing in there because there is just SO much movement. The kind that is distracting when you are trying to read or write because you can see your clothes jumping around. It’s an amazing experience and I’m going to miss it, even though sometimes my stomach is incredibly tight and it kind of hurts.
I’m trying not to get overwhelmed, but I can feel the pressure. We have all this baby stuff to do PLUS the holiday stuff PLUS we really don’t know how much time we have left.
- moved every piece of furniture in the apartment at least once–including the rugs
- assembled cribs
- ordered and had delivered an 8-drawer dresser that will also double as a changing table
- ordered and had delivered a new lamp for the baby ‘corner’ and a new lamp for the newly designed living room
- ordered and had delivered a new Laz.y Boy glider/recliner
- cleaned out and organized 2 walk in closets, the linen closet and a regular closet
- cleaned out and wiped down all kitchen shelves to make room for bottles and kid feeding supplies
- accumulated 6 bags of ‘stuff’ to go to Goodwill
- purged books no longer holding on to from bookshelves
- created a kid’s library (with over 50 books so far!) from an old bookshelf that used to hold photos/knickknacks
- threw away 2 old wooden chairs
- sold a chair and ottoman
- washed all newborn to 6 month old clothing and organized in new dresser
- washed all crib bedding/blankets/hooded towels/bundle me’s for car seats/fabric inserts on bouncers, swings, etc
- washed all bottles/pacifiers/teethers and organized in kitchen
- cleaned out a trunk full of clothing that is now a toy chest (full of toys!)
- legally changed last names
- met with lawyer and finalized wills, powers of attorney, living wills
- had 2 baby showers
- went on a babymoon
- had a professional maternity photo shoot at 27 weeks
- booked our CSA organic farm share for next summer in anticipations of feeding the twins some great mushy fruits and vegetables
- went on hospital tour
- pre-registered at hospital
- finished all Holiday shopping
- designed Holiday cards
- decided on a pediatrician
- purchased a great cool mist humidifier that has kept the nosebleeds at bay and will be prefect for the twins as well
- read all of our books on twins and breast feeding books
- watched 3 Laugh and L.earn DVD’s in lieu of her specialized classes at $300 (these DVD’s are available at Net.flix and were great!)
- attended “Twini.versity” class for how to raise twins in NYC (great class!)
- had bathroom repainted
- had A/C in bedroom replaced
- had all misc repair work in apartment completed
- had child proof bars put on all windows
- acclimated ourselves to sleep in a much cooler bedroom as the temperature for infants should be around 70 degrees
- created a ‘stroller parking’ section in our apartment to accommodate the double stroller, snap n go and car seats
- cancelled all but one magazine subscription as won’t have much time to read magazines!
- did a lot of walking (probably too much
- went swimming (probably not enough)
- saved over $4,000 by getting used baby gear for free or a greatly reduced price from the Twins Moms Club. Yes, 4K. I kept track!
- send out Holiday cards
- remove things currently in cribs so that babies can actually sleep there (right now they have become holding spaces for other baby gear we can’t decide where to store)
- pack hospital bag
- pack diaper bag
- cancel most of our cable/Fi.os package as we doubt we’re going to be watching much mindless TV for a long time
- get all supporting documents for the 2nd parent adoption
- go to Social Security office for cards with new names (do we get a new number, too?)
- go to DMV for new licenses
- go to Passport office to new passports (I think we’ll wait to do this until the twins are born so we can get theirs done at the same time)
- change all legal documents and bank cards, health cards, etc to new name (this sounds like the most incredible pain in the ass)
- find and take an infant CPR class
- purchase rest of baby gear once the coupons come in the mail (you get a 10% off coupon for all of your remaining registry items at Buy.BU.yBaby and Babie.sRu.s mailed to you two weeks before your due date–so I changed my due date to January 1st!)
- organize tax receipts now so we don’t freak out in April
- get rid of our wooden coffee table and buy a leather ottoman with storage inside (much more kid-friendly and no deadly corners)
- baby-proof the house before social worker comes for 2nd parent adoption
- purge all old papers in files
- hang all artwork in apartment now that everything is organized and in place
- read a book that has nothing to do with baby rearing
This morning’s conversation went like this: (Warning–poop talk of the non-human kind will be found below. Read at your own risk).
OK, so it wasn’t quite that great, but I did manage to crack up my Doctor’s when I christened my lady part a “rock star cervix” upon hearing it went from a 2.7 to a 3.17!
For the past two or more weeks I’ve been experiencing what is probably the beginning of carpal tunnel syndrome. I haven’t mentioned it because I wanted it to go away or at least get better. It’s not getting better, it’s getting worse.