54 and Cleared for Takeoff

The beta numbers have dropped incredibly in the last two days. But still I have yet to see blood.
I read that with an early miscarriage it’s possible for your body to ‘re-absorb’ the tissue. Our bodies are quite bizarre at times.

So, while I’m not happy the numbers ever dropped, I’m incredibly grateful that they are dropping now and so quickly. There is no ectopic, there will be no D&C and the trip to Bali is on.

I packed everything yesterday thinking positive thoughts that we would go. I can’t think of a better place to relax, rejuvenate and recharge. Bali operates on spirituality 24 hours a day. They wake with offerings to the gods, there are ceremonies for nearly every occasion and family always comes first with children viewed as little treasures. In fact, Balinese children are generally held until they can walk because it is deemed that the floor is too filthy for these little treasures to tread upon.

Thank you everyone for all your kind comments and words of hope. It has been so touching for me to realize how much support and strength this community brings me.
I’m not commenting so much these days, but please know that I’m following along with you–just a bit more silently these days.

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  • Reply mulberry September 2, 2008 at 10:04 pm

    have a kick ass time in bali! soak it all in and bring back some little treasure mojo…

  • Reply jessie September 2, 2008 at 10:29 pm

    I’m just so so so happy that you can go on your trip! What great timing – love on yourself and each other!

  • Reply Eva September 2, 2008 at 10:47 pm

    good luck and have a great trip. xo

  • Reply giggleblue September 2, 2008 at 11:03 pm

    enjoy the vacation! i’m happy that you were able to go! i’m hoping that soaking in all the spirit goodness will be refreshing.

  • Reply wishinghopingpraying September 2, 2008 at 11:33 pm

    Enjoy your trip, be safe and take good care of yourself.

  • Reply Heidi September 2, 2008 at 11:45 pm

    This trip sounds like the perfect trip, just the rx you need right now.

    wishing you peace.

  • Reply Lizzie September 2, 2008 at 11:54 pm

    You are on my mind every day. So glad you get to take your vacation. My best wishes for renewal, mind and body.

  • Reply insertmetaphor September 3, 2008 at 1:33 am

    I’m SO glad you can still take your trip. And I’m glad your numbers are going down on their own so you don’t have to face a D&C.

  • Reply emily September 3, 2008 at 3:10 am

    Thrilled that you can take your trip. Bali sounds like the perfect place to rejuvenate.

    I have a blog now and would like to invite you… http://babymakinghusband.wordpress.com/

    Thanks for sharing your journey.

  • Reply journeytowardsourbaby September 3, 2008 at 5:50 am

    hmm think I just lost my comment – if it comes up twice I apologise!

    Just catching up on blogs, so sorry to hear your news but glad the numbers are dropping naturally.

    Take care of yourselves and enjoy Bali – a pretty good place for you to be headed about now I’d say!

  • Reply shawn September 3, 2008 at 11:06 am

    SO happy that you’ll be able to rest and travel. Good stuff.

    Have a great time and take care of each other…

    (oh, and in my personal experience, i didn’t start bleeding till the numbers dropped below 50 but maybe not the case for everyone)


  • Reply nutella September 3, 2008 at 2:19 pm

    I’m so glad that you still get to take your trip. Enjoy and soak it all in.

  • Reply eggdance September 4, 2008 at 3:49 am

    I am so glad that you are going to get away. I’m thinking of both of you and wishing you a wonderful, healing trip.

  • Reply vee September 4, 2008 at 4:53 pm

    I’m so glad you get to go to Bali. I hope you find some peace and healing there and come back refreshed.

  • Reply tbean September 4, 2008 at 8:44 pm

    best wishes for a healing and restorative trip

  • Reply Carrie September 5, 2008 at 2:05 am

    you gals are going through so much right now. im glad the numbers are dropping quickly/naturally, and that you can go on your vacation. hopefully it will be a nice break from TTC, and provide a little needed zen!

  • Reply timaree September 5, 2008 at 2:47 am

    Oh my gosh. I can’t believe I haven’t read about all of this yet, and I’m so very sorry. I’m glad you get to go to Bali to do some healing, glad this wasn’t an ectopic. I’ll be the thinking the best for you and wishing you safe, restorative, healing travels. xoxo

  • Reply Sarah September 9, 2008 at 2:55 am

    Best wishes for a healing trip to Bali. I am very glad you can take this trip.

  • Reply oneofhismoms September 24, 2008 at 12:42 am

    I’m so sorry you guys. I just read back and learned about your loss. I’m a little out of the loop these days. I am very glad you are in Bali. Good to go to heaven when you’re feeling like hell.

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