Caffeine is a Drug and I Really Like It

Thank you everyone for the sweet comments.  It’s nice to know that you’re all out there like an invisible security blanket.  I can’t imagine going through all of this without blogging about it.  Thank you Thank you!

So what do you do with yourself after your 4th BFN?

  • Leave work early
  • Go shoe shopping (buy nothing)
  • Salivate over hiking and camping gear at Paragon (but buy nothing)
  • Vow to buy as many Merrell shoes as possible (but not today)
  • Devour Scuba Diving magazine and travel guidebooks to Bali at Union Square’s Barnes and Noble (why would I buy it when I can read it for free there?)
  • Do Yoga
  • Eat Thai food
  • Get Dessert (mango and sticky rice! YUM!)
  • Stay up too late reading
What do you do the next day?
  • Work from home
  • Sleep late instead of working
  • Wake up and make a double espresso latte
  • Get super wired
  • Actually decide to get a little work done
  • Find yourself researching IVF options in Thailand
  • Decide this clinic is a excellent option for the future at a fraction of the cost in the USA
  • Wonder if you should just go now
  • Drop off dry cleaning
  • Meet friend for Sushi (yah raw fish!)
  • Take new jeans to tailor
  • Pick up shoes from cobbler
  • Go to drugstore
  • Pay rent
  • Download music
  • Email RE 
  • Shop for sperm
  • Do two loads of laundry
  • Pick up vegetable share from farm co-op
  • Go to Pilates
  • Get a pedicure
  • Read on the couch eating leftover Thai food from last night
  • Realize that while mango lasts a day, alas coconut sticky rice does not.  
  • Vow to just eat it all next time.
  • Think about going to beach tomorrow instead of working….
Sorry if that bored you, but damn it was a productive day!
Thank you caffeine.  I may even break my rule and have you again tomorrow.  Maybe not.

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  • Reply liberationtheory June 27, 2008 at 5:06 am

    it sounds like you had a SPLENDID day!

  • Reply giggleblue June 27, 2008 at 5:20 am

    you know that coffee gave you a headache!

    now about this RE in thailand: i’m a little concerned about the fact that they have not responded to any questions submitted on their website. none the less, they may be too busy making babies.

    that being said, i think if you are in the area, by all means, give them a whirl. after all, accomidations are included, and food can’t be that expensive there.

    enjoy your time away from work!

  • Reply queerstork June 27, 2008 at 11:58 am

    You covered so many of my favourite things in this post… Thai food, mango, B&N at Union Square, Thailand, dessert, Merrell shoes, yoga, music, sperm, espresso, and working from home.

    Might be the perfect BFN and post-BFN days. If I ever have a stupid BFN again, I’ll copy you even if it does involve a flight to NYC to visit my favourite B&N.

  • Reply Shelley June 27, 2008 at 2:44 pm

    So sorry to hear about the BFN. I know the feeling…

    If you haven’t bought new sperm yet, I would be happy to chat w/ you about the pros and cons.

    Are you going to the march on Saturday?

  • Reply insertmetaphor June 27, 2008 at 3:23 pm

    Grr, it just ate my comment. I was just saying that I’m really productive on caffeine too. Also that I never thought about going to Thailand for IVF. The clinic looks like it definitely caters to americans – they’ve got a very white baby on their home page!

  • Reply Heather June 27, 2008 at 8:40 pm

    geeze you did a lot!

  • Reply giggleblue June 27, 2008 at 9:32 pm

    umm – i had a question for you regarding insurance. i think we have the same insurance plan. but i had some questions for you regarding the whole RE thing and infertility workups. can you please email me at antoinettemims@gmail.com?


  • Reply Malea June 28, 2008 at 6:45 pm

    Don’t give up ladies. Do what ever you have to to keep your spirits up until the spirits smile on you:)

    Shopping is the cure all for everything,but getting away on a camping trip is priceless.Even if it’s just in central park(lol)

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