Oops. It Happened Again

The first feeling was jealously not joy.
My brain was telling me to say “Congratulations, I’m so happy for you.”
And I did, right after “You’ve got to be fucking kidding me. The practice run try?”

She’s 31. She’s got fresh sperm. It was easy.
She’s by far my favorite relative in all of Chicken’s family and it IS going to be super cool having another cousin so close in age.
And yet the news still hit me a bit like acid being thrown.

We told her before anyone in our family. And now we know before anyone else as well. I’m flattered we are the first to know.
I am truly joyful for her and wish her a great pregnancy.
But damn. That initial reaction.
It never gets easier.
Does it?

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  • Reply FONTY July 13, 2010 at 7:48 am

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  • Reply Eva July 13, 2010 at 11:25 am

    Nope, it doesn’t. Preach it sister!

  • Reply Jen July 13, 2010 at 12:15 pm

    I agree. It never gets easier and for me it is hard to admit the bitterness of fertility PTSD.

  • Reply AdventuresInBabyMaking July 13, 2010 at 1:41 pm

    God, I feel like such an ass admitting it, but I feel the same way sometimes. I didn’t think I was that kind of person, and it isn’t a competition, but there you go.

  • Reply Melissa July 13, 2010 at 2:34 pm

    Totally agree with everyone else. I’m still such a bitter Betty about the TTC process. A friend of ours sister and partner just found out they are pregnant. My first question wasn’t when are they due, nut how long did it take them to get a BFP. I think this whole process leaves permanent emotional scars.

  • Reply anofferingoflove July 13, 2010 at 2:57 pm

    nope, it doesnt. im still bitter too. *hugs*

  • Reply Next in Line July 13, 2010 at 5:06 pm

    It just bites. I feel so lucky to have her, but nothing erases two and half years.

  • Reply Lez July 13, 2010 at 6:19 pm

    It certainly does bite! I haven’t even tried that many times (only twice, 3 years ago) and it still hurts!! Why do some people have it so easy?

  • Reply Strawberry July 13, 2010 at 8:18 pm

    Unfortunately I don’t think it does. The grass is always going to be greener somewhere…whether it’s infertility-related, easier-birth-than-you-had-related, the-girl-you-always-wanted-related…whatever is it. Resentment sucks.

  • Reply N July 14, 2010 at 12:29 am

    It hasn’t yet for me. *hugs*

  • Reply Ruby at Breathedragon July 14, 2010 at 12:41 am

    I HOPE it gets easier, eventually…

    So far, nah.

    But eventually. Hopefully.

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